Demi Lovato: A Disney Baby Turned Warrior

DEMI LOVATO. A Disney baby first seen as a Barney kid, a promising performer at a very young age. She started performing at 5 and had no option but to grow up fast. People's high expectations and Hollywood fame got the better of her and with no way out, she started self-mutilating at 11. Then at 17, she got to her senses and brought herself to rehab. Now she is back as a better person, a better artist far from the Disney baby she once was. 

I wasn't a huge fan, but her courage amazed me. At 20, she is now an advocate of Anti-Bullying and is giving inspirational speeches to teenagers who are going through a rough time. While the other Disney teens she grew up with remains to be boys and girls, she is now a strong woman, capable of anything. She is a warrior. 

Her new self-titled album DEMI chronicles her struggles towards recovery and Warrior, along with Skyscraper is my favorite track in the album. Every line and note of the song just touched me to the core. As a person who went through a rough teenage life myself, I can clearly relate to the emotion of every line.

"There's a part of me I can't get back

A little girl grew up too fast

All it took was once, I'll never be the same

Now I'm taking back my life today

Nothing left for you to say

Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway

Now I'm a warrior, I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior, I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior, and you can never hurt me again."

"Warrior" by Demi Lovato Lyrics

In an interview, Demi said that she had songs that helped her made it through the rough days. The nostalgia started to kick in. I can clearly see my 17-year old self, going through identity issues, don't know where to go. Then I watched Camp Rock and heard "This is Me" from the soundtrack. "I've always been the kind of girl who hid myself, so afraid to tell the world, what I got to say..." And that became my anthem. It became my turning my turning point. Listening to it repeatedly is what helped me made it through. Telling myself that I don't have to please others. I got to be me, and believing in myself "is the only way".

Demi is a survivor. An epitome of a true warrior.

Charice: The 'Comin Out'

I know every Filipino can still recall how a guesting in The Ellen Show had opened doors for the then 14-year old Charice Pempengco's singing career. And we can still remember everyone's shock when he showed up on TV in 2011 with a boyish hairstyle, a totally different wardrobe and a tattoo. She never said anything about her sexual preference, but this month, on her 21st birthday, she described it as a 'coming out party'.

I was never a Charice fan but her 'coming out' had touched me. In a country like the Philippines where people of the third sex are judged as if they are not as much human as the 'straights', it must have been hard for her to come out and show who she really is. I can only imagine how hard it was for her to be the kind of performer everyone had designed her to be. It must have been hard suppressing your real identity just to please people.

I have a newly-found respect for her. Despite her increasing number of bashers because of her choice of wardrobe and hairstyle, she continues to act and dress the way she likes as if telling her haters, "This is what I'm comfortable with and I don't owe anyone and explanation". If that is what makes her happy, then who are we to judge?

I am an atheist so suffice to say I don't care about the religious bullsh*ts against the third sex. I feel happy when gays and lesbians come out despite the odds and their family and friends accepts them. For me, it means that society has matured. We can't keep on hating them. We cannot keep on denying their existence. If they are here, it means they are ought to be here. Let's embrace them just like everyone else.

"My spirit is made of Titanium. I will not break" -Charice

*Photo courtesy of Bum Tenorio and The Philippine Star.

An open letter to a friend...

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to the other, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one'."

Dear Nhil,

Guess what? I just wrote you a letter! I bet tonight, a night before the start of your journey, your friends had already been writing you letters, sending you cards, flowers and what have you. Well as you know, just like you, I'm better at writing stuff, so I guess this is my sophisticated version of saying "Bon Voyage".

When I heard that you're moving to Hawaii, I thought a lot of stuff to give to you as a "Bon Voyage Token". I thought of getting you a John Green or a David Levithan book or maybe a DVD copy of your favorite movie (not that I'm not aware that you have a copy of 500 Days of Summer on your hard drive that you've watched for the nth time) and recently, I thought of getting you an original copy of Taylor's RED Album. I also thought of making a scrapbook of our photos during training to remind you of the awesome folks you met during your first "real job" (ahem..). But then, I got a little too busy and when I realized the day is near, I became totally broke that even a book on sale at NBS is something I can no longer afford. So it goes without saying that the only awesome thing I can give you is an open letter posted on my blog for every one to see and to know just how great you are to deserve such an effort (char). 

I know I won't be seeing you anymore for the next 3 years, or maybe forever, because after 3 years, you've already became a "super awesome American guy" that you've already forgotten everything about me or your CVG friends. But nonetheless, I wanna say thank you for the short awesome moment we had as friends. You are one of those few people I can have an intelligent conversation with, who never gets bored of my ideas and philosophy. Whenever I finish a new book, I can't wait to go to work and share it with you, because no one else understands how it feels. No one else understands how it feels to be swept of your feet by a wonderful story and hoping you could write something as awesome as that. And you are the only guy I met who likes Taylor Swift. I guess it's because we are both into these true-love cliches.

So I kinda revised Tay's Tim McGraw for you. You can sing it in that tune (just please bear with it, it's inda impromptu.)

"You said your tie doesn't look that nice

and your pimpled face don't match your brushed-up hair

I said, "That's a lie"

You're just a boy in an orange jeans

That had a tendency of getting stuck to your insecurities

And I was right there with you for 3 mos long

Cramming on those exams and mock calls and making it through

Well when you think Taylor Swift

I hope you think my favorite song

Like those stories we've talked about

Like Haze and Gus and Summer and Tom

When you think happiness

Remember the scorecard you've ACEd

All the happy days we've shared

and the new things we've learned

When you think Taylor Swift

I hope you think of me"

There you go. I may be unable to give you a copy of Tay's album but I wrote you a song. And since I was unable to give you a book, I'll send you one. You were wondering about the stuff you got in your email, well that's an eBook of "Let It Snow". I know you could just easily download that since we download stuff on the same site, but it would be more dramatic if I was the one who sent it (o_O).

In behalf of Penguin Wave 54, Bon Voyage mafriend!

Hugs and kisses,

SHIENNA 

-xoxo-

Review: I Saw The Devil (Korean Thriller Movie)

As Asians, we know for a fact that Koreans are superb at dramas and romantic comedies with leads with a boy-band face. I didn't know they are good at thrillers too, not until I got hold of a Blu-Ray of I Saw The Devil starring one of Korea's most promising actors Lee Byung-hun.

I Saw the Devil is a shockingly violent yet amazingly created film. I was never a fan of gore and violent films, let alone K-Pop, but this one is just so surprising. Portraying the role of Soo-hyun, a detective who tracked down his pregnant fiance's murderer and plots an extraordinarily violent revenge, Lee Byung-hun did an amazing job. His acting was amazing. The main antagonist Choi Min-sik, on the other hand, portraying the psycho murderer is just  equally stunning. The scenes where so real that you can actually feel how painful the decapitation is. The entire screenplay is also amazing. The story is so original. It wasn't your usual vengeance film, it was violence with a taste.

Watching this makes me wanna get more of these Korean thrillers.

You guys know any other good ones? Let me know.