Astrological Dillema... think your affected?

So here's the thing.. I just started to make a brief research on this astrological dillema that left a lot of horoscope fanatic in frenzy. This "zodiac sign changes" thingy had been a worldwide web sensation in this past week. Personally, I don't really care but for the benefit of those people who seems to be really affected (those people who only buy newspapers to see their 'fortune for the day' and watches Magandang Umaga Bayan or Unang Hirit early in the morning to wait for that segment by Madam Auring, or whoever astrological fortune teller)..

Here's what I found out..

There's no really such thing as a "change" in the zodiac signs.. This is just a 'PROPOSAL' of a professor named Parke Kunkle from a Minnesota University (you really cannot blame him because observing those stuffs up there is what he do for a living). He said he came up with the proposal because of the changes of the rotation of the earth that changed it's alignment with the stars... yah da.. yah da.. blah.. blah.. blah.. (I didn't really mind reading about the details) Anyways, Kunkle is now known as "The Man Who Changed The Zodiac Sign" but as far as I know, it wasn't changed at all.. He just wanted to.. But he wanting it doesnt necessarily mean it was changed.. You know what I mean? The world wide web is just way too exagerated.. So for those people who had been crazy over the thought of them turning from a Virgo to a Leo or whatever, stop mourning! The recent controversy won't really change you from a 'The Virgin' (Virgo's symbol) to 'The Lion (Leo's symbol). And if ever those changes where really true, why care? Hey! Those are just stars or constellations or whatever they are called. In fact, the Zodiac was created by the Babylonians 2000 years ago - the same people who practice idoltery and worship a god with a dragon (that looks like a duck) named Marduk.

Babylonian god Marduk with his dragon.

The zodiac aren't and should't be our guide for everyday living. We have God, and we should pray. We should not depend our 'fortune' on those star allignment called Zodiac.

Breaking the habit!

When you are in a relationship, you have a one-track mind: your boyfriend. When you break up, you have a one-track mind: your ex-boyfriend. At what point do you forget the past and start thinking only about ME? You don’t have to think about your past; you don’t have to think about what is gone; you don’t have to think about the love you are missing out on. It is better to be free than be enslaved by a tumultuous relationship; some love can’t be repaired. Yet after you are out of it, you don’t know how to be free. It is a paradox. You are too paralyzed to move because you are venturing into the unknown. Standing still is the initial reaction because you don’t know where else to go. You are abandoned in the blistering cold.

There is far too much life to live fully and alone to dwell on the what-if. Time quickly passes that you can never recover. I don’t want to live with regret. Dwelling and pitying has eaten a year of my life. A year. 365 days. I could have done a million things in a year, but I did nothing. Never again.

Selfishness is healthy. After a break-up, you absolutely must be selfish. You must immerse yourself in new experiences, activities, relationships to help create a new identity. All of the mental energy you possess must be devoted to repair and self-restoration. Nothing else. Otherwise your identity from the past remains your identity in the present. I don’t want to be the person I was in that relationship- I didn’t love myself. And I don’t love myself as long as I am still hung up on the devastation of it all. You must change EVERYTHING- experiment, risk, explore. Putting yourself out on a limb makes you stronger and more confident. Only you can change, there is nothing external that will initiate the process. I choose my thoughts; I choose my behaviors; I choose my proactivity. No one else can change these things. This is my biggest trap. I want some event to turn it all around, but this isn’t how it works. Change is a daily process- it is a lifestyle. Incremental, not overnight.

There is tremendous power in self-mastery; it is a journey I have been toying with for a long time, but have yet to aggressively pursue it. Old thoughts and habits inhibit my success, as I let them destroy all progress in one single swoop. I work so hard, yet give it all away because my mind convinces me I am not worth it. This is a habit, not who I am. I must rid myself of it. Only you can be your own biggest cheerleader- it’s not vain and conceited; it is a necessity. If you tell yourself something over and over, you eventually believe it; this is so true. Good mental health leads to good everything health.

Ridding yourself of the past is no different than ridding yourself of any kind of addiction. You simply can’t go back; not even one taste. It is an all or nothing. Letting your past creep in is dangerous because it can take over. You don’t have to let it control you; you just have to resist the urge to succumb to it. No pictures, no texts, no drunken calls. Nothing. He is dead to me. He is in a grave. It is time to climb out of the hole I’ve buried myself in along with him.

Life must move on. The world doesn’t stop spinning just because you can’t see the light of day. Life is waiting. Don’t miss out on it. Every second is a chance to be born again. Embrace the opportunities life has to offer- regret is probably more painful than heartache. You can love again, but you can’t live again.

Start living.

why 'pudpodnakuko'??

A lot of my friends and fellow netizens had been asking this one question, "Why 'pudpodnakuko'?" That's actually my username in almost all my blog sites. And it's because I got blunt nails. Why? 'Coz I bite them! Yes guys, till now, I am still nail-biting (nakakahiya man aminin..) and I can't help that. So to stop myself from doing it, I often color my nails.

And I wanna use rare usernames.. I also thought of using weird userna

mes like sardinasnapula, putoatdinuguan, putingkalabaw and adobongipis but I chose something that describes myself..

So hopefully that satisfies the queries.. ^^,

see that?? LOL

*Epitome of Randomness*

It had been a while since I created my blogger account but I haven't posted anything yet.. Partly because I've been addicted over TUMBLR and Twitter.. Honestly I can't really think about anything interesting to blog about right now, so I will just share some random thoughts in here..

Let's start with some brief self-introduction..

I am Shienna Marie, a Filipina (and I'm so proud being one). My friends call me Shien, at work I am Shae, at home I am Bessie (Mama gave the nickname since I was born during the typhoon Besing, and since it's not a nice name, they decided to revise it). I am 20 (but wishes I am a few years older). I am a little weird, moody and sarcastic at times. I love to sing and dance (I used to be in the dance troupe way back but I am too fat to dance now..) And yes I am FAT! They say it's more appropriate to say "chubby" but I don't believe that sugar-coating the term makes it any better. I am an outspoken person, ayoko sa mambobola at pa-cute, I am makulit and a little pasaway but I mean what I say and I say what I mean. I have simple aspiration and dreams, not the type who strives for too much excellence and perfection. I live my life with simplicity and contentment. I know I'm not perfect and never intended to be one. I believe that life is basically being imperfect and striving fro perfection is too good to be true. At first sight, I may look superficial, but get to know me, and you'll realize how deep my thoughts and emotions are. I cry a lot but I laugh more, you may say that I laugh at my mistakes but you never know how much I learn from them. Music had been my refuge to the pain of the world. With my music, it seems like I am living in a world free from the bandage of pain. Every note and every line of every song I write reflects the unknown side of me. It tells my story - from the most happy and cheerful days to the most gloomy and poignant memories.

I have a boyfriend named Jhabar. He isn't perfect, but I love him. He is exceptionally sweet.

I work in a call center. I am a Customer Service Representative for a US TelecoCom. And yes, I am used to being yelled at by people I don't see..

Life may had given me a fair share of tears and pain but I still love how God designed my life.. I love me despite my imperfections. I love my life and the wonderful people in it. This is me. And this is my life. THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL.. ^^,